"Most people can look back over the years and identify a time and place at which their lives changed significantly. Whether by accident or design, these are the moments when, because of a readiness within us and a collaboration with events occurring around us, we are forced to seriously reappraise ourselves and the conditions under which we live and to make certain choices that will affect the rest of our lives." (Frederick F. Flack)
This blog has charted many of my course corrections over the years. Looking back in the archives you can find many posts filled with "what next?" anxiety and an equal number describing my decided next step. It is interesting to see how many of those next steps have not been taken, especially in the last few years when I wasn't writing updates.
The last two years have been an marathon of detours and discoveries and yet here I am, in Ontario, doing what I said I would do three years ago - come home. I have realized that any sort of PhD study is not in the current deck of cards being dealt. Maybe the next deck will have them and a new hand can be played at that time. But for now, I am happy to settle into being where I am. I am content to relax in the fact that I KNOW what I will be doing 6 months from now. I am optimistic that a number of things I have wanted in my life are falling from the future and into my present. I guess what it really all means is that I am, finally, ready ... for the rest of my life.
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